Anna Maria Locke


Scenes from my road.

There are no mountains or forests here, but there are open fields and a full dome of sky where the sun creates spectacular colors every evening. 

The other day I mentioned to Ben that right now is a period in our lives that I'm likely to forget about eventually. We are hundreds of miles apart and I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life or when we'll be together again or where we'll be or what we'll be doing. I have frequent breakdowns over the uncertainty of things and the lack of job postings that I actually want to apply to.

But I don't really want to forget about this time. Despite how it feels, we will end up with jobs eventually, and hopefully they are jobs we actually want. We have the rest of our lives to live together, and the first six years of our relationship will be outstripped. We will be able to save money and buy a house, even if it takes a decade or two. It's easy to get jealous of other people whose lives seem so much more under control and on track according to their facebook and blog, and I've even had to stop reading blogs because the "perfectness" they project or the dream jobs they've landed make me feel worse about my own life, which is ridiculous. I guess the point of this post is that I'm trying real hard to cling on to my early 20's and enjoy life while it happens. Even if it's hard.